Jesus, Here Is My Heart

My heart feels like bursting
nothing can truly express it’s cry
It groans asĀ it recognizes the hurt
The pain is a signal
that I am not truly home
The sinful nature looks to this world and persuades me to find comfort there
I’ve been there too many times
No true satisfaction can be found
Not in relationships
Not in pleasure
Not in happiness
These things only last a moment
In their wake they leave hurt or even depression
People think that love is the center of life
But life is at the center of Love
To go outside of it
Or to stray away means to abandon hope and true comfort
That is why, like a fetter, bind my wand’ring heart to thee
My heart aches and groans for the Almighty, the Eternal, the King
No thing can possibly replace such joy
Nor can no thing last

Praise the One who made me alive
The very day that He died

I can't live a single day without you     
I don't even want to try                                      
And I won't take another step without your light           
I need your light
-Phil Wickham

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
-Psalm 73:25


A Kingdom Perspective

I started a tradition that, every year on the 1st of January, I read last year’s entry in my journal and reflect upon the past year. I, then, write about the upcoming year and speculations as to how the year will unfold. So this year, I wrote about what I think this year will bring and such, but another thing I decided to do was add a passage as a theme for this year.

I decided on Colossians 3:1-3 which says,

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.
-Colossians 3:1-3D

I have many reasons as to why I chose this passage. My primary reason, though, is that I realized something in 2013: I focused a lot on earthly things (relationships, marriage, future careers, etc.). None of these things are inherently bad, but I made these things my highest pursuit and they ruled my life. I know that I will never escape sin this side of death, so I don’t expect to be perfect in anything I do. However, I do want this year to be more focused on the eternal and I want to have a kingdom perspective because, as I’ve read through Matthew, Jesus is ALWAYS focused on the Father and His kingdom. You can see that kind of mindset and attitude in literally everything He does. It would be annoying how often He is focused on just the Father and His kingdom if it weren’t exactly what we’re supposed to do.

This year, I want to be driven by the hope that God has given me. He knows what I need and so I need to surrender and trust that He will meet those needs. There will most certainly be pain, struggle, and temptation. Even though I will experience all of that, I want to see God’s glory in the face of Christ and see His loftiness and surrender to a great God who cares and loves. For there is no higher pursuit than the pursuit of God.